My freedom and lucky number 3!

Life is magical, mysterious, and down right majestic. I continue to receive affirmation that the opportunities, experiences, adventures, and enjoyment the universe presents is nothing more than a reflection of the energy put out. It's a mirror image of the person and soul offered. Good things happen to good people. On my fifth arrival to Nicaragua my life feels limitless. My heart and soul feel full and alive. I made a promise to myself on 3/23/13 (three happens to be my favorite number), that I'd never SETTLE...and better yet, never settle for a life less than extraordinary. "Mostly happy" was no longer good enough. To think back on this past year, I can't help but smile. Smile from the tip of my head to the end of my toes and in the midst feel the warmest heart. My growth and evolution has been exponential. 

A few exciting reflections:

- I've picked up a new sport (surfing!!!) that's helped fill the void soccer left after my last collegiate game; 

- I've traveled to different countries and across the US for unimaginable work experiences and even better soul healing and confidence building surf and yoga retreats; 

- The friends I've acquired and friendships that have grown stronger bring nothing less than positivity and offer perspectives and challenges that make me a better person; 

- My heart feels healed and I feel vulnerable to life, love and passion; 

- I've proven to myself that I'm capable of anything, I'm talking anything I put my heart and soul into achieving. 

So with those highlights I truly feel blessed and deserving. I believe in the person I've become. My morals and ethics are something I'm incredibly proud to share and hold very close to my heart. I'm appreciative of each moment for what it offers. Thank you to each person whom has helped me become stronger and better. I feel so many changes upon the horizon and with that realization, I am bringing an intention to feel each moment for what it's worth. So, as I contemplate the mayhem and hectic work tasks ahead in this incredibly special country I am taking this moment to simply breathe. As a whole it feels overwhelming, but it'll all be over in a blink of an eye and I want to absorb and cherish every ounce of energy and experience. So here's to the calm before the storm; the warm tropical breeze before mayhem overwhelms. 

Food for thought: Above all else, be a positive person for the world. Work and own your weaknesses and insecurities. This world needs believers. Believe you deserve happiness. Live a life of freedom and love. It's worth it, I can absolutely promise you that!

"There is always only this one step, and so you give it your fullest attention. This doesn't mean you don't know where you are going; it just means this step is primary, the destination is secondary."

A little bit of this AND a lot of that...

A tough exterior and an open accepting interior; the direction of my intention and energy today. I must admit, a deep breath, slight smile and appreciation for the moment helps catapult an otherwise defeated soul into happiness and enjoyment. Life is so incredibly special. The universe listens. Be courageous and give respect. Pay attention to your intuition. Once I acknowledged my feelings and believed in myself - my life changed. Opportunities, people, interactions, situations; true happiness - I'm living and alive. Side note, but relivent, as a student and professional whom has crutched on the subjects of math and science, my ego thanks each and every one of you whom have supported me unknowingly and purposefully. I was hesitant to even blog/publicly write; however, I decided the day before I left for Nicaragua to try. To try and share my adventure, my evolution, my growth. Never have a felt so vulnerable, yet received so much support and confidence. The universe - giving me the boost, the tools, the energy; I'm grateful. This all sounds so deep, and feels exactly as this thought process is structured: disorganized. My time here for this first work task is coming to an end and I'm trying to reflect. A few constants: Mayhem. Opportunity. Evolution. Appreciation. Laughter - always laughter. Beauty. Challenge. Perspective. Enjoyment. 

Nicaragua is forever a part of me, providing the push I've been seeking. I'm meant for something bigger than the life I've been living. Never again will I settle or ignore. If you're reading this, know you're a part of my growth and I respect the role and impact you've had on my journey and life. I end this post with a full heart. Each person is here for a reason. Make an impact. I do appreciate you - we all have something to offer!

A political cartoon in today's newspaper -relivent  to my time here...

Sums up beach life and positive vibes

In the US this would transport animals - in Nica, different story

A Casa in old Leon, pretty interesting

Squirrelly steps to a tree house vista over looking a crystal clear water Laguna

Two months of struggle living as a Gringo

Mañana marks two months in Nicaragua and I'm feeling like a true defeated, exhausted, foreign gringo. Ironic based on the time and connections I've spent here; however, the lack of Spanish and white colored skin pins an unspoken bulls eye and perception of "stupid Americano girl." This frustration is not voiced to place blame, but instead to appreciate and learn moving forward in my own life. Do not assume or perceive, only base opinions on interaction and experience. Words and image mean nothing; actions speak so loud - one cannot hear a word that is being stated. I live and will continue to live this thought and lesson whole heartedly. I've spent enough time, energy and willpower accomplishing work objectives that are beyond overlooked as convenient in first world countries to feel the full effect of exhaustion and near surrender. My deepest lows, never ending days, and toughest tasks are counterbalanced with manic highs consisting of excursions experiencing the purest untouched beauty and adventures this country has to offer. For that I'm thankful. My heart and soul have felt and seen beauty I did not know existed. The few and far between days off absorbing the energy and uniqueness of Nicaraguan beaches and volcanoes are worth the mayhem and constant struggle I'm otherwise faced with 24/7. In this moment, I miss feeling as though I belong. I am tired. Tired of the struggle. To be clear - life on the coast is night and day in comparison to life in the cities and eastern Caribbean mountains of Nicaragua. Whenever I retreat to the coast I feel refreshed and re energized with excitement, innocence and joy. It's the cities and attempt for work productivity that sucks the life from you. So to conclude this rather drab and anticlimactic post, I feel so appreciative for my life, my family, my friends, my education, my opportunities, my health, my intuition and ethical being instilled within my heart and soul. I am proud of myself, my actions and the respect I've given in situations that have tested my character. I have nothing but respect for the life I have and continue to encounter. Here's to keeping on, believing in yourself and appreciating the things in your life that make your heart feel. Smile, laugh, enjoy. You only have one life to live - be strong, be brave, and live with no regrets...the jump is worth it, I promise.

Peace, love and happiness!

Some pictures of highlights in Nica are below:

Just trying to drive out east at 4am this morning

The most beautiful sunsets

 

Inside a lava tube cave - LOVE!

 

 

Grateful for life!

Sunset while fishing

 

Grateful. I'm grateful for the life I'm living and manifested. I feel as though it's only begun, but each day I wake up thirsty for more. Not in a feeding the adrenaline way - more in a "what does this day have to offer for me to feel, grow and evolve." I feel incredibly open to whatever comes along and it's empowering. On another note, I rarely get sick and have been uncharacteristically fighting off a sinus-chest situation for almost a week. Other than one day in which non-existent energy forced me to spend a day in bed sleeping, I've taken this experience as a positive challenge. Meaning, to be sick gives me an opportunity to listen to my body as well as recognize and acknowledge tendencies during a time of weakness. It's been an eye opening experience and although I REALLY hope I'm able to fight this off soon, I'm grateful for knowing with a little support from long distance friends, I'm capable of feeling defeated and exhausted in a totally foreign place and still have enough strength and perseverance to keep on. With that, I've thoroughly enjoyed a few days off after a week of work and preparation for my last work task in Nica before returning back to the States for the holidays. I visited Masaya with its undeniable energy as well as explored the neighboring dormant volcano. I hiked up and then volcanoe-boarded down Volcan Cerronegro (epic), surfed as much as the tides would allow, yoga'd (first time getting into WildThing pose and which is now an instant favorite), went fishing (caught a barracuda and then ate my catch via ceviche the next day), Tona'd, laughed, bonfired (awesome under the night sky on the beach in Nica!!!) and read - a lot in a hammock.

Hiking up to volcano board

 

I made it!

After surfing

 

Watching the sunset

Fishing round two

I've met some really incredible people along the way and I am constantly reassured I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, doing exactly what I'm destined to be experiencing. Life has so much joy, adventure, laughter and happiness to offer. Be brave, strong and confident. Have conversations and share feelings. If you feel it acknowledge it. Share an energy that's contagious and other like-minded people will find their way to you. Opportunities will be created. Live respectfully and you will be treated with respect. Give what you deserve in return. I truly believe these things within my soul and intend to continue to inspire, evolve, experience and laugh - always laugh. Peace, love and happiness!

Hiking around Masaya

Pretty unreal

 

Magical Mayhem of Nicaragua AND The Liz Guise Show

Having the self-confidence and raw strength to believe in my intuition, capabilities, purpose, feelings and vision is the most empowering and liberating transformation I have ever experienced. Clearly it is ongoing and will continue to evolve with time and experiences. Reflecting on my life just one year ago at this time gives me reassurance that once I was able to let go of control, comfort and expectations, and open my heart and soul to being self-caring in order to pursue a life I have always dreamed, paths became available that did not exist before. I am thankful for every encounter, relationship and obstacle, because without those experiences I wouldn’t be in this exact place, at this exact moment, feeling the most amazing energies in all forms. I guess what I am trying to express is that I have found the bigger the risk the bigger the outcome; whether it be in love, life, honesty or journeys. Perspective also plays a major roll. I realize that in the past the negativity and often times pity parties were a colossal waste of beautiful energy. As soon as I changed my perspective and began truly acknowledging at the deepest level what I am feeling and learning, my life changed. I refuse to ever go back. Is it scary and down-right frightening? Absolutely. Do I miss comforts and do I have doubts? Daily. Would I change one second and do I live with regrets? No. Once I realized I was meant for something bigger than I was currently living, and that there was so much more to my life than the limits I was setting, everything became purposeful and fluid.  I appreciate all vulnerabilities and embrace the lessons those experiences are teaching me. So much peace, love and happiness is in this world, don’t waste another minute believing any differently.

Now on to more interesting events that have occurred in the past two weeks and are a product of making choices based on what feels right and taking the path of least resistance verses fighting the universe just to conform with social norms.  

A week or two ago I was somewhat displaced from my “home away from home” in Managua, and I was intending to visit some Amiga’s in Chinandega. That fell through and at the last moment (I am talking I had already committed to going north with no real place to land) friends sent me information on a place they thought I’d enjoy. So, sight unseen and not researched, I showed up and waved my ride goodbye. Let’s just say it was awesome. I met some really incredible people, experienced beautiful sights and sounds (including sunsets, bats in my cabana flying around ALL night, hammocks, roosters 24hrs a day, an estuary, securing my own coconut, and the list goes on)…

 

 

 Enjoying and working for my first fresh off the tree coconut!

My next big leap is when my first, and only visitor from the US, joined the mayhem of Nicaragua. Bless her heart, I tried my best to explain the situation, but never have I felt more truth in expressing that this place and experience is only real once you are here. Barb put all her trust and faith in me and goodness was it an absolutely amazing adventure, but one of the craziest times of my life. I decided renting a car would be the best way to get around – a country where a GPS doesn’t work, there are no road names, and maps are hard to come by. No problem, right? You can ask people along the route. However, neither of us speaks Spanish. Needless to say we made it to our destinations each night and I do feel we saw this country through our own eyes. I only got stopped four times, had to pay twice for my license back, the other two times I pulled some name dropping and put up a serious fight. We saw the calm beaches, crazy cities of Granada and Leon, experienced an active volcano that attempted to overtake us in sulfur gases as well as hiked inside a lava tube cave (easily one of the best adventures of my life). Conclusion: look at each of us now, “living and sh*t.”

Beautiful in Popoyo

Ha.

Granada, with a rainbow of course

 I have found my spark in life, looking into Masaya was life changing. Some sort of energy within volcanoes that touched my heart and soul! Who cares about the sulfur gas creeping into my lungs.

Inside a lava tube cave. I AM going back and I want to go into the one that leads to the flowing lava!!

 The trusty rental car, what a leap of faith and confidence that turned out to be...

Now I am back in Nicaragua after a whirlwind visit to the States for the holidays. I was able to meet my niece, Katie, whom was born while I have been away in Nicaragua. She is truly precious.

Here’s to living the life you’ve been given. Always know anything is possible and life has so much to offer as soon as you are ready to believe it and live it honestly, confidently and respectfully.

Thank You Muchas Gracias

It is amazing what alone time can do to rejuvenate the mind, body and soul. My hermit tendencies are an essential aspect of my Being. Thank you Nicaragua for this confirmed revelation. My previous post was rushed and a compilation of word vomit; my last ditch effort to somehow have a written record of a weeks worth of crazy adventures squeezed amidst 14 hour work days. Yesterday, after a blitzkrieg morning on autopilot, I retired to my hotel bed around 2pm and stayed there for 19 hours. Only getting up to use the bathroom and order dinner - delivered to my room of course. Today, after another crazy morning of work, I went for a long run followed by yoga in my room. Now I sit alone, drinking a glass of wine, listening to music, reading Absolutely On Purpose, and absorbing the energy of this restaurant (El Tercer Ojo) and most importantly this exact moment in my life. Less than 24 hrs ago I was feeling broken and over-used. An intention of mindful reconnection with ones Self has truly provided an unexplainable shift in perspective and energy. I feel grateful, happy and open. All smiles.

 

On another note, contemplation, thought and energy have been projected towards understanding my unquenchable need and desire for adventure, experience, and freedom. There's a fire within my soul, my whole Being, that continuously expands my vision of possibilities. Thank you Holly Beck for introducing me to the saying and therefore meaning of, "Anything is possible." That has changed my life, truly. I've listened and felt the extreme moments of euphoria followed closely by hardship. With those experiences, this adventure has thus far reaffirmed my need to "continue and keep on." Continue to laugh so hard my belly hurts, continue to clasp my hands together to find stillness from adrenaline and fear, continue to let go of control and schedule, continue to smile and project positivity no matter the situation or obstacle, continue to bow my head in exhaustion and allow tears to fall to release the utmost feeling of complete defeat, continue to be vulnerable and confident with that state, and and to continue to absorb energy, knowledge and experiences. Thank you life, thank you universe, thank you food and water, thank you to all whom have helped me find the inner confidence and self love I've lacked for far too long.

Tree along the drive to Momotombo

 

View from Tree House

 

Some food for thought: never doubt yourself. Never doubt a decision or choice - it's the choice you made, so it is correct. "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams, and live the life you have imagined" - Henry David Thoreau
We are all here to be a part of one another. Be kind, because it feels correct to be kind. So much love and gratitude to all whom have touched my life and my heart. I appreciate you.

Laguna at Momotombo

 

Laguna at Momotombo

 

 

Momotombo and lots of driving

Two things I have recently learned: Every day (or every few days – realistically) I want to do something that frightens me (just a LITTLE, so my heart races and I become a little braver) and volcanoes are amazing.

 

My most recent excursions have consisted of visits to Momotombo, Momotombito, and all the beauty and awesomeness around that area. It’s hard to truly explain the fun and craziness that I have had, other than my heart and soul are so happy.

 

Before the attempt to drive up the side of Momotombo

 

 

I attempted to drive up the side of Momotombo by paying a security guard 100 Cordoba. Pretty squirrelly situation. Needless to say, after driving up stream beds, past aloe plants, other plants not to be “identified”, and some of the wildest squirrelly situations, the route was blocked by a tree which had been struck by lightning the day before. I definitely was beyond nervous and felt the adrenaline pumping. WORTH IT! After a 10 point turn, we safely made it back to the bottom and clearly stopped to take some epic pictures along the way.

Tree along Momotombo

 

Another excursion consisted of exploring the Laguna below Momotombo. That was an experience in itself. We had to pay 50 Cordoba to a local landowner and ended up hiking down a pretty steep hill. The terrain is all volcanic rock, so super super slippery and of course I was wearing sandals. Anyways, the Laguna was unreal…unlike anything I have ever seen or experienced. It was completely secluded and there wasn’t road access. It was crystal clear water, silent and void of any human life. UNREAL.  The Laguna Masaya is supposed to be similar to the one I visited, except there are restaurants and touristy things to do there. Anyways, the hike back to the car was beyond amusing. I almost lost my Amigo, he had to stop twice because “his heart was beating in his head and he couldn’t breathe.” I have never laughed so hard. I have also visited Old Leon as well as Old Managua.

Old Managua

The past two days have been 8-10 hours worth of driving due to round trips far out east. I am pretty tired, but the experiences are beyond worth it. This world and life has so much to offer. Anyways, five more days of work – then the real Nica exploring and adventuring begins!!! Oh, and now, I am staying through December 18^th…maybe I will just buy some land and take up residency in Nica?! Anything is possible. Peace and Love!

San Miguelito

 

The moon is pretty special down here